Embracing the New

“I did it.  I found his grave.  I talked with him for a long time.  There was no rush.  I gave him a cigarette right there on his headstone and we smoked and talked.  I got to say things that I have been waiting thirty years to say. It’s been thirty years almost to the day since I saw him. I told him that I am sorry I wasn’t there for him that night.  I told him that I know now it was not my fault that he died. 20190519 R.L. headstone image I have been carrying that around for a long time.  I realize that I can finally let that go.  I got the sense that he was there with me and I heard him say, “Just remember me.”  I know that he wants me to remember how he was a good friend and remember the good times that we had together.  It took a lot for me to touch his gravestone. I felt a wave of anxiety come over me.  And I stayed there until that feeling was gone.  At the end, I stood at attention and gave a salute to him.  I understand better now that I need to get out more, stop isolating.  I can open up and be myself.  I am able to say to myself, I want a life and I gotta step out and do that.  And I know that therapy has helped me.  It has helped to know that my ESGH therapist is rooting for me.  She helped me face my past.  At this point in my life, I am ready to embrace the new.”

Robert L.

Easter Seals Greater Houston, Veterans Mental Health Program

Leave a comment

Filed under Latest News, Uncategorized

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s